Every Summer I find myself going through a genuine depression.

For years I thought It was the heat, the long days, the chaos schedule ( or lack there of).

After much meditation I have come to realize it is my fear of failure.

Most families go on vacation, or do fun pool activities.

When Kiddo was young it was hard for me to take her places alone. Then she had her surgeries and going out during the summer was not good. Then I guess I just started feeling like I was doing something wrong!

Not this summer!

I have to have some new begginins this summer.

Planned a small vacation, and it was wonderful. We have taken small moment to throw water balloons at each other, since we can’t have a pool.

We have learned to art of making the most of driving around and enjoying the sights.

Another new start is slowing acclimating to waking up earlier and making the most of my moringings. I have loved going out on the porch and seeing the sun just starting to shine.

I think it is my new obsession!

I was so stuck in survival I had no choice but to peel myself off the ground and stand!

That is what new beginnings are for!

Standing in the new light of day and knowing you are capable of a good day!